We have overcome a huge milestone in our lives. We have made it to 34 weeks. While, I was quite nervous about what would happen last week, so many people were praying for us all that I knew God was in control and had so much peace about how this baby is growing and how healthy she and me are.
This week has started off pretty well too. I feel like I can breathe a little easier now and that some more peaceful times are ahead for our family.
I have been so amazed by how many people have been praying for us. All throughout last week, I had friends call us, or stop by and hang out with us, or even send emails throughout the week just to let us know that they were praying extra hard for us last week. I also had a couple of friends let me know that even their own kids have been praying for baby Ehrlich this whole time. It brings tears to my eyes to know that this little girl is so loved by so many. She truly is a great blessing from God.
Tom and I have had to face many challenges these last couple of years, and it is amazing to see how God is using our pain to help and strengthen others when they think that life isn't worth moving on. I know that feeling completely. Last week did bring back some memories about where we were and what happened to us at that point in my pregnancy with Caden, but also brought us so much hope and joy that God really is holding us close to Him even when we can't see Him.
There have been several God things happen to us, that would seem very coincidental to anyone else, but to us, we know that God is definitely at work. One of those things is the Drs. office that I have been going to. It seems like they know what I need before I realize that I need it. That is definitely God at work. Another instance is that for the rest of my pregnancy, all of my appointments have been scheduled so that Tom can meet me there. Since I work in the mornings only, I usually schedule them during that time whatever works best for them, but they decided to schedule the rest of them and did it so that Tom could be there with me at every appointment. That is so God at work too. I also completely believe that God has been holding my heart and mind especially close throughout this pregnancy, and b/c of all of the prayers, I have not been as stressed out as I would normally be, even before losing Caden or being pregnant. I know that trying to be perfect and my little perfectionistic ways about me have been given over to God. He has given me the courage and strength to lay those things at his feet and to leave them there so that Satan has no foothold to work his way into my heart and mind. That has been what peace has looked liked in my life. For that I am thankful.
I often wonder about the timing of God and his plan for our lives, but I know that He does work out everything and I mean everything for His good. I may not ever know how grief could bring about something good, but as I look back on the last 2 years of my life, we see good things everyday. The things that were once important to me seem to be just things, and relationships with friends (new and old), family, and sharing openly and honestly with people we come in contact with has been something that we never thought we could do, but with the strength of God, peace has entered our lives in such a way that we can rest in His plan for us whatever that may be. I used to think that I had to have that figured out, but it is really exciting to see new things happening all the time in me, Tom, our families, and friends.
We just want to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone who has walked this road with us and has prayed for us this past week. It really was a giant hurdle to get through and now even though we still guard our hearts, the fear that we could have is a little less with your helpful prayers. Thanks so much for walking this road with us and for sharing in our lives. We are so excited to meet this new little girl soon.
Tom & Mira & Baby "Girl" Ehrlich
She has cute little chubby cheeks.