Jaycee did pretty well with the sitter. She typically has been sleeping most of the mornings, but is still getting used to having a new person take care of her for part of the day. I kind of struggled with that b/c I hoped that she would get into a routine with the sitter right away. I guess that is my first time parenting wishful thinking.
One of the things that I didn't realize would be hard for me were to completely trust God that He would take care of her in my absence. I find myself looking at her and just praying that God shows me how to do right by her and how to raise her to be a good person with a kind heart who loves God and cares about others. I also wonder how I can do that in the world we live in today. So much about my life the past two years has showed me that some things are more important than others. God has shown me that. He has helped me not to live a life of too much worry, but to rest in Him and his protection and love for me. That is a hard lesson to learn. I didn't realize how much I would worry about Jaycee and every little thing that she does and that I do for her. Am I doing it right? Does she need to be fed, or is she tired, or does she just need to be held? All of those questions would race through my mind many times a day if I let them. But I realize now that God will supply me with the wisdom and knowledge as to how to take care of her and how to be a good mom, wife, friend, daughter, & sister in the process.
I've been reading Proverbs and it is all about wisdom and that with God that is where wisdom comes from. So as I try to daily put God first and seek Him out with everything in my life, I rest in the peace that He will show me what I need to do and when I need to do it.
Just a little note about Tom too. He has been a great dad to Jaycee. It is so fun to see him with her. He has always told me that he likes to teach girls b/c they are so responsive to him. He teaches middle school, so I think he really understand how to be patient. He often isn't quite sure about all of her little outfits, but it is so fun to see that he wants to take an active part in getting her ready in the mornings and spending quality time with her by feeding her in the mornings. That really is a special time for both of them and I think it will help Jaycee feel a deep connection to her dad later on. I just had to brag on him for a little bit. He is so much a part of the success of our marriage and parenting. I don't know how I could make it through some things without him.
So this next week I pray that Jaycee, Tom, and I will settle into a routine that works for us all and that as parents we can gain wisdom as to what to do to help Jaycee learn and know Jesus. I also pray that Tom and I will continue adjusting to new parenthood and the changes that we will be seeing in the next few years.
Tom, Mira, & Jaycee