So it has been a while since I last wrote. We have had lots going on, and just trying to stay cool in this summer heat is proving to be a challenge. I want to go outside and do things, but the heat is too much at times. Well, here is what's been going on recently.
Our computer crashed, and we had to totally update everything. I am not sure what caused it, but then as I was trying to download music for a cd for a friend, it crashed again. Technology is great when it works. It is running fine now, but has made staying in touch with people kind of hard. I never realized how much I do use my computer.
We took another short trip to Oakley, Ks to visit some friends of ours that moved there. The town is pretty small, but is was fun to see our friends before the end of the summer. It was just a weekend trip, but still was hot and long at times.
Earlier this week, I had a small scare with regards to the baby. Up until now I have been feeling super, not sick, not uncomfortable (at least nothing to complain about), and not too nervous about being pregnant again. On Tuesday I felt just awful, sick, tired alot, and hadn't felt the baby move as much as usual. I had been getting to the point that I thought I could almost figure out when this baby's most active times were, and all that day he/she wasn't too active and it felt different. It is kind of hard to explain, but it SCARED me quite a bit. The Dr. told me to call anytime and they would check me out and help ease my mind, but I feel like I am a crazy person that I have to do that. I know that I am not crazy (at least not all the time), but I was more scared then I normally am and couldn't pinpoint any reason for it other than that I just needed some reassurances. I did get to go in that very same day. My Drs. office is so great about calling me right back and letting me come in whenever I want without me feeling like I am being judged for it. That is the one great thing about this new Dr. that I have been going to. They seem to understand what I have been going through. Everything was fine, the nurse found the heartbeat right away and told me that I just need to keep eating protein throughout the day and eating more calories to keep me feeling stronger too. At my last appointment the Dr. and nurses told me that the baby is doubling in size from then until the next couple of weeks and is about 2 pounds and that is why I am feeling drained more. I have never been told to eat more, but I guess that is what I have to do to keep feeling good. There were a couple of friends that I called and asked to pray for me that day. Thanks to those of you who did that, and to those of you who are still praying for our family.
We really haven't done a whole lot in the nursery so far, I hesitate to even do anything out of fear. I really don't think that we will do much else. We have a few pictures of Caden that we want to hang up so that our baby will know that he is watching out for him/her all the time and is saving a special place in heaven for him/her.
I will leave you with some comforting verses that got us through these tough past 2 years. Even though we had been so discouraged, God brought us peace with ourselves and with Him and the chance to hopefully be parents again.
For in this hope we were saved.
But hope that is seen is not hope at all.
Who hopes for what he already has?
But if we hope for what we do not yet have,
we wait for it patiently. In the same way, the spirit helps
us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray
for, but the spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that
words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts
knows the mind of the spirit, because the spirit intercedes for the
saints according to God's will
~ Romans 8:24-27
... in all these things we are more than conquerors
through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death
nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the
future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything
else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
~ Romans 8:37-39
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace
as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope
by the power of the Holy Spirit.
~ Romans 15:13